Self Care

I recently went to the doctor’s due to a chronic problem I’ve been having. I am talking about at least four years now. My shoulder, neck, and head just give up on me pretty much ha-ha. The first time I truly seen someone about this was me going to the emergency. I was in SO much pain that I could not move my head and cried so long/hard that I could not keep crying. I went in because it scared me that somehow I seriously injured myself. I was told it was a muscle spasm and given the same anti inflammatory I already took in a stronger dose.

We forward two years. I got headaches and shoulder pain. I jump between reasons why it’s happening. I may have seen my primary care once and was told to try and find a way to relax as a first step. But at that two/two and a half year mark, I went to emergency again. Not so much because I wanted too but because Mister insisted on it. Things had gotten so bad. I guess my symptoms resembled a migraine and that is what I was treated for. Now I can say the treatment worked as they gave me painkillers and Gravol (which knocks me out). I was left with my shoulder and (apperantly) migraines being seperate issues. I got some medication but never really felt like it helped. I also became pregnant only a few months later.

Honestly I cannot remember if it continued during the pregnancy. So much was happening and I had so many other aches. It absolutely has been happening since Missy’s birth though. I finally decided that I cannot just hope for the best and I need to see my primary care. The results were not bad but nothing is really going to change.

It is a muscle spasm(s) and what I need is self care (or self love really). It is where I apperantly carry my stress. It is great that I do not need medication but I was kind of hoping for a quicker fix or a bridge to help. My headaches (not migraines) are caused my my shoulder and neck. If I get that under control my headaches will be under control.

The problem I currently face is things are going to be so much more stressful before the become less stressful. That seems to be the way life goes generally. I just do not always feel like I have enough energy to push through it. Change is hard but it is possible. Being able to recognize the signs my subconscious sends me would be fantastic too ha-ha. Self care seems to be what I am always prescribed 🙂

It Has Been a While

I felt like I was getting better at posting and than things just seemed not to happen ha-ha. I mean it has not been like things have been interesting or anything.

Effie will be moving here in less than a month, tax season is upon us which means busy times with work, and I am re-learning to draw. Yes, I said that right. My right arm (which is my dominant arm) is in some pretty bad shape. Now I love to draw, colour, and paint but it puts extra stress on it. The options end up being that I continue on and lose the ability to do anything with my right arm very early on. I can quit drawing, writing letters, blogging, anything causing the extra strain but there is no release in that. Or I can do some of this stuff with my left arm.

It is not very much fun at all. I have been practicing with writing with my left hand for about six years now. I still very much write like a toddler or such just in a smaller fashion. I have always been able to colour in a child’s colouring book so I don’t feel like that is much of a feat. Drawing is kind of depressing though. I actually just drew a picture and I mean it could be worse but it is not pretty either. It isn’t even my style to began with.

Any ways my original plan for a series I am slightly moving away from because there are something’s that could become an issue. I started to think I could do my learning to draw as a series instead with bi-weekly or monthly updates. This would depend on how often I take the time (because it is a very slow process) to sit down and do something. Than I will also do updates with Effie and I’s ‘adventures’ on just as what we do together as friends but also living with a friend. This can be very hard and in some cases it can ruin a friendship

There should be plenty to share with you in the coming future and who knows maybe Effie will want to write her own pieces? We will just have to see how things turn out.